Happiness is not achieved by conscious pursuit
Happiness is not achieved by conscious pursuit; it’s through finding present moments to be grateful for... and sharing moments with others. It is first and foremost “an inside job”
I often thought about what I ‘wanted’ and ‘needed’ to be happy, as if I wasn’t already, and wouldn’t be until I had ticked the designated boxes my mind or society created. I lived my life on auto pilot; occasionally I still do. But I was never really ‘happy’, and the grass was always greener...
Maybe at the time I needed to sit back and enjoy the ride, I wonder if my past trauma had conditioned me to live in my subconscious as a safety net. Perhaps that’s why at times I’m half in and half out, even now. It’s all part of a journey and I’m finding solace in each step...
But I’m no longer in a constant pursuit of ‘happiness’, the illusive pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. I’m choosing to live it, each and every day. Celebrating life in development and success in each breath. Focusing on myself and accepting each part I once considered a ‘flaw’ ~ Learning to love myself within my perception of darkness...
The best part of “an inside job” is we choose when and where to begin, why not now?
✧ Start Journalling, no matter how small and insignificant something may seem, become aware your thoughts and write as a way of letting go or processing
✧ Noticing when you’re not present (daydreamers bliss) we all do it, but noticing, and accepting it has so much power ‘you are the observer’ ~ you’re in control
✧ Take time for yourself, with no motive or desired outcome. Dance when you feel like dancing. Sing in the shower, draw, scream, shout, cry... (this last one I have always had trouble accepting)
✧ Share moments, appreciate those you love (literally tell them) everyone’s love language is different but sharing LOVE is the most euphoric of all... you’ll find that happiness is a state of mind, not a destination.